Zoom – The Fatigue is Real

What was previously just another onomatopoeic “ding dong” is now going to be one of the most used words of 2020. The word zoom, will forever take on a meaning of endless work meetings and the location for all social interaction for the large part of the last three months. We’ve celebrated birthday’s on zoom, praised achievements, had hard discussions and now honestly, I’m zoomed out.

Ironically, the word “zoom” usually indicates that you are moving quickly, flying through life, but my god are we trudging right now. Since moving to London time has flown, I’ve posted once since September! Days and nights instead filled with commuting, drinks in the pub, exploring new areas and for the large part, flopping exhaustedly on my bed after a day in the office. But now, we shut our laptops after a day of working from home, only to open them an hour later to join our friends and family for another edition of the weekly lockdown quiz.

But there is no shame in wanting to turn off the laptop, put it in a cupboard and never turn it back on. That would be admittedly a little dramatic, but honestly, I feel you. We are not programmed to live our lives through a screen, social interaction is a fundamental part of our nature and sometimes we all just need a physical hug.

I’ve found that since I’m spending the entirety of my social time on a laptop, whether that be for work or for catching up with friends, I’m sure as hell not wanting to spend my “me time” on it too. Whereas I once could have spent hours reading blogs, watching youtube videos and *ahem* playing the sims, now I find myself craving activities that don’t require staring at a screen. I’ve found I actually love colouring – turn’s out my creativity was playing with the colours in a picture someone else has drawn for me rather than drawing them myself, something my art teacher was more than definitely aware of at school…

I also have finished my first leisure book in a long time. Sophie Kinsella speaks to me on another level and I resonated hard with Samantha from The Undomestic Goddess. I’ve been delving into Caroline Hiron’s Skincare and have been learning to tell my AHA’s from my BHA’s in an attempt to justify a whole new skincare routine that’s Caroline approved.

So if you’re feeling a little ‘zoomed out’ then do yourself a good deed and step away from the screen. Social media is included in this – if you are digitally fatigued then the last thing you need is to see how others are living it up in lockdown!

Pick up a book. Go for a socially distanced walk. Paint your nails. Draw a picture. Fake tan. Try on every item of clothing in your wardrobe. Take a bath. Ultimately, make some time for yourself offline.

Yes, this is temporary, but whilst this is the way things are, make sure you adjust the other aspects of your life to account for this change. Will I ever pick colouring in a picture over meeting my friends for cocktails and brunch in the future? No, probably not. But for now it’s ok to say no to a zoom call and do an offline activity that’s just for you.

Brb, off to sharpen my pencils.

Let’s Have A Catch Up

Stop the traffic, I have actually written a new blog post. Much to my family’s delight I am sure after months of asking why I haven’t been blogging. But the reason why I haven’t been blogging? Real life is hard. Most of my posts so far on here have been about finding a job, I seem to have that bit sorted. But what to do once I actually got one? Not a clue mate.

In truth, some aspects of my job have been even better than expected. I do really like the people I work with and not being micromanaged means I have the responsibility of planning how I am going to spend my time, which has proved to be one of my strengths. I’ve still got my pastel highlighters which are used every day to co-ordinate which areas I’m working on and I have been incredibly organised. Emails get filed as soon as they have been dealt with, my desktop is surprisingly uncluttered and I make sure that I only have the essentials on my desk throughout the day. Sounds pretty good so far!

But the world of work is incredibly tricky to navigate, especially as a recent graduate. Starting a new job there is obviously so much to learn, but when you’re trying to learn how to deal with office politics, finding an evening and morning routine that isn’t going to leave you feeling like a zombie and the feeling of pure exhaustion after fighting through rush hour at the end of the day it seems like one big Eat-Sleep-Work-Repeat cycle.

As you can see from the complete lack of blogging, making the time for myself and my hobbies has taken somewhat of a back seat. I have a gym in my building but if I make it once during the week then it’s a good effort. I’ve barely read any blogs never mind written my own! All those areas of London and restaurants that I wanted to visit? Yeah, not doing too well on that front either.

What have I been doing then? Aside from sitting on the jubilee line for what feels like the majority of my day, having a flat where most of the surfaces are white or wooden takes a lot of cleaning. Whilst I did obviously have a flat at uni, having a place that is totally my own has given me a much stronger sense of pride and I’ve been making conscious efforts to ensure that it stays both tidy and clean. Whilst this might sound like the most basic of housekeeping, for those that know me then they will know I not only have “the chair” where all my clothes get piled, but also “the floor” and don’t even get me started on my non-existent makeup storage that covered my entire desk. But I’m enjoying feeling like a domestic goddess after bleaching the entire kitchen and feeling like the best girlfriend in the world after ironing Ed’s shirts for the week.

So in short, this being an adult thing is actually a little bit harder than I thought. The unlimited free time of University to do with as I pleased is now a distant memory. But, in the New Year same-but-trying me vein, I am determined to manage my time a little better and make sure I don’t lose the bits of me that make me me. So that’s getting myself back in the gym and making sure that I start sharing all the experiences of the working world that I’ve had on londonsnewgirl. After a delightful walk through Hyde Park yesterday I realised how much more exploring I need to do of this incredible city. I do still get butterflies sometimes on my walk to work as I catch a glimpse of the Thames and the London Eye so I think I’ve had my settling in period, it’s time to go grab London life with both hands.

Dear Diary… I GOT A JOB

Perhaps the most exciting post I’ve written since I started blogging again. So far on londonsnewgirl you’ve all read about my journey trying to find a job in London. I’ve talked about everything from interview prep to dealing with rejection and now I can finally share some good news – I’M EMPLOYED! Well, I will be when I start full time on September 9th.

What an absolutely whirlwind of a job-seeking experience. I knew the day would come when I’d actually get a job but finding motivation when I’m sitting in the house watching Ed go off to work and dealing with rejection was pretty damn hard. I’ve recently written about how hard it is to be a graduate and that post had such an amazing response. I’m glad I can now be an example of how hard work can pay off and help others who are struggling with their job hunting experience.

So what’s my job? For various reasons I don’t want to go in to too much detail, but I’ll be working for a publication coordinating their German adverts. A job in media that uses German? Quite literally a dream! The office is on fleet street and I thought my mum was going to cry when I told her. I’ve always loved writing and journalism, so to have my office on a street that is so iconic makes moving to London feel all that more real. I’m right in the heart of the action and I don’t think that is ever going to stop being exciting!

As I had to go through a recruitment company to get an interview for the role, I had three interviews in total! One assessment centre, an initial interview with the company and then finally a presentation. Luckily for me the process was rather speedy in comparison to others and exactly a week after the first interview I received a job offer.

One thing nobody ever talks about though is how scary it is actually accepting it! I’d been working towards a job offer for months, but as soon as I actually had one I was full of nerves. What if I don’t like it? What if I am not good at it? Am I about to make a mistake? I’m a chronic over-thinker so this probably doesn’t apply to you, but after reconciling myself to the fact that yes, I probably will absolutely love it and yes, they wouldn’t have offered me the job if they didn’t think I’d be good at it, I was thrilled to accept.

So now I have a week or so to sort myself out. Finish collecting some final pieces for my dream work wardrobe, make sure we lock down a flat now that we both have jobs and ultimately enjoy my last little bit of Summer Holiday freedom. The thought that I’m about to start the rest of my life is a little doom and gloom and I’m trying to see it as such a big opportunity to finally start achieving some of my long term goals!